02 April 2008 Y Wednesday, April 02, 2008
am i lying to myself ? talk wif my dad today hais .
dad : so....you're 100% sure that you will be here as planned right?
me : yuppx .
dad : I had checked some cooking courses for you
dad : are u really interested in cooking?
me : yuppx .
dad : you're still with same girl friend? ( i really don no how to tell him )
me : yuppx .
dad : wat she doing now ?
me : taking O level
dad : is she interested to be here also? ( i really hope that euu would )
me : hmmmm.. nop .
dad : you can stay away from her for a long time?
me : hmmm. i just want make a future fo us
dad : even if you need to stay here forever?
me : also can if some time ii go back sg find her or she come find me
dad : its not a long term planing.......and this kind of relationship won't last
me : just put aside it is between me and her , i do love her .
dad : pa's planning is that later...you need to stay here forever because you will take over pa's companies
dad : if you can cook well, pa will try to open restaurant for you
dad : whatever the company and factory here make money, you can keep
Some how wish to talk to my mum . ask her book ticket for me cause ii want go back early =D don wish to wait till 2x can die euu know . so sian don want stay here !! . But my dad also away to oversea . Guess stay wif my cousin bahs =D . and meet aim !! =D so miss him alot . try try talk to my mum bahs =D . maybe going back early bahs hahas . hais . talk to greg . he quite understanding and knowing too =D hahas lyk what he told me is right . what the point of getting euu back ? when ii am going back . althought some time we do meet each other . don euu think ii am selfish ? to let euu suffer wif me . he told me first love alway hurt . cherish it n make it a good memories . and who parent will let there daught to marry when she is so young . first lurbb after sometime together can become sour . we are young euu will change nor i will change .
some how past is past . now is now . i do lurbb you and really wish to take care
of you and give you a good life from now . but do i have this chance ? let me
fulfill the thing that you wanted if you allow me to do so . Some how i really hope
you could pick up a course that you wanted . and let me help you and settle
everything for you . in my life without you there is no goal . i guess all those word
i said . you wont trust me . now i will prove you alright . all i just want from you .
is to know how much i lurbb you . no one can ever stop me from loving you . so how
really wish to go round the world . but there is no you i don wish to go because
without you there would be any fun . and i just want share my joy and happiness
with you